Missing you..

I so miss you now. I wish everyday I could see you and be with you all the time. Round-the-clock, I keep thinking about you. During Chinese New Year, I can't contact you for a week. This going to torture me. I going to suffer for a week. I can't celebrate Valentine's Day with you. This is really sad. I hope the time can passes fast when I not with you and time will freeze when I with you. You always be the first place no matter what. I will never forget the precious moment that I had with you. Our moments is priceless and precious. No one can take it away.

I miss you, my dear..

20/01/2010

The date when the love story begin between us. I love the feeling when I with her. It is truly comfortable. The day where I start to hold her hands and said "I love you" to her. She is my everything. She always in the first place. No one can take over her place. I love her so much. I am so desperate of her. The time is ticking. I can't wait to see her. 38 hours left. I very miss her now. I hope the time can passes very fast so that I can see her. I also hope that she can always with me all the time. Unfortunately, it won't happen. Anyway, as long as I know that we love each other, is enough. My status had changed.

I love you, Ruby Teo.

Metamorphose

My characteristic is changing at a leisure pace from active to passive. Maybe it is a good thing when I was in the high school. But in college, I supposing to be more active but unfortunately I became passive. I don't want to make friends, I don't want to talk with other people, I don't want to have group works. I just wanna talk with one person. That's only her. I feels much comfortable when I chat with her. She's the one I need the most in my life. But at the same time, there might have challengers to face. I can tell you honestly that you always in the first place of everything to me. Just only sometime I moody, I don't want to chat with you because it might hurt you. I promised myself not to hurt you anymore because I love you. But I need you when I moody. Sounds so complicated. Maybe you haven't realize how depress am I when I couldn't get you? My feeling towards you is unexplainable. And you're unique compare to other girls.

"Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder".

Second Chance

I don't really understand why the God don't give me a chance. At the same time, I think should I deserve a chance. But everybody have a second chances. But why not me? Is really sad. Life is always have challengers. I just want you. That's all. Other than that, I don't really care anymore. The most important thing is only you. Nothing else comes first. Not even my health or wealth. I just wish to spend my rest of my life with you. I wanna share everything with you. I wanna keep you accompany when you're upset. I wish I can give you everything I could. You're really important for me. I rather shorten my life for few years because of you. This is because I know is worth it. But I just can't get your heart. I felt that I really a failure in everything. Just forget about it. Recently, all the things that happened around me had give me a deep impact of everything in aspect of love, family, and friends. I hope you can give me chance.

Good night.. I love you..

Taylor's Business Foundation

At first, I thought I'm the only one who is very playful and talkative. But I found that I no longer a talkative and playful boy just like in the high school. I met someone that much more aggressive, talkative and hyper-active than me. I wanna be part of them.

Haha!

Today is my first lesson for Malaysian Studies. We had been separated into few groups. The objective of today's class is to learn new culture. Besides that, Every group need to create their own culture. This is the best part. After that, every group need to send representative to perform it in front of the class facing the audience. I almost laughed like shit when saw all those so-called 'new culture' with different style. Some of it is really very stupid, funny, and meaningless. Some of it is truly awesome, meaningful and decent. Most of the group perform it in the indecent way. This make me laughed. Some even uttering profanity in front of the lecturer. Luckily, the lecturer didn't mind. The most unbelievable part is the lecturer still laugh because the way of their expressing the new culture. Some even rubbing, being horny, bitchy. And act like females. Some even do stupid things. This 2 hours I kept laughing because of their indecent behaviour. My group also doing something that funny yet in decent way. College life really becoming more and more interesting. Besides that, the lecturer is truly amaze me with their jokes. At the same time, we learnt something from it. That's a meaning behind the jokes. I felt the way of teaching of the lecturer is really amazing. This gonna make me become more crazy.

Disappointment

Last night, I felt very uneasy and depress.

I not used to it at all.

Haiz........

What should I do now?

I don't dare to touch relationship anymore.

This really need a very big sacrifice on it.

I not afford to sacrifice because of relationship.

But

I will never regret to fall in love on you.

At the same time,

I felt very disappointed to myself.

My 'dad' birthday

Once again, I wished you happy birthday, Chan Pui Yee. I hope you like the present that I gave you. Everything was last minutes. Actually I can't arrange my time to buy present. So I bought it this morning. Quite in a rush. After the lunch, we decided to go to Mines Wonderland to have movies. We had been separated into two groups. One group decided to watch horror movie and the other one watching some cartoon show. I felt very tired and happy. We watched Ju-On. For me, I felt very bored and not really scary but abit digusting. I mean the way the killer slaughtered human. It is truly disgusting. After the movie, I decided to go back because I promised my parents that I joining them for dinner and other reasons. And now I was waiting for my parents. Next week I gonna continue my studies. Hurray!!!!!!!! Is time to become nerd if I can. Haha!!! Studying is fun. At the same time, I felt that my mum, Seah Li Peng, and me have the same thinking and opinion. Sometime I can read her mind and she can read mine. I felt so grateful to have such a wonderful mummy.

Second day of working

Today as usual I woke up at 7.00 a.m. Went to jogging. After that, I text her. But not anymore. Then ate my breakfast. Then drive to work. But today really very special. Work half day and play half day. But since my mum let me dismiss early. I should be grateful with that. Anyway, I had done with my job before I went off. I went to Cempaka today. The purpose is to claim back the deposit that I had paid. Unfortunately, is not ready yet. After that, Kenneth, Lynus, Hong Yaip and me went to cyber-cafe play COD and Left 4 Dead 2. We are so cooperative and gain victory. 4 of us are so excited. We keep caring each other while we are playing. Such a good partner we had here. And I realize that phone no longer is important for me now. I have a bundle of worksheet that waiting for me to calculate and submit to my beloved mum. I was so happy that I able to help my mum. Even though is just a simple work. And the funniest thing is when I was meeting, I brought my mac into the conference room and sat beside my mum. While the meeting is going on, I chat with my friends and facebook-ing. Haha!!! And my mum asked me what am I doing? I said chatting with my friends and seeking for sexy girls. Haha!! My mum just remains speechless and continue her meeting. It's so funny. This is my first job in the office that doing something stupid during the meeting. What a dumb boy my mum had in Lee's family!!! Haha!!!

Failure

The feeling of missing you came back again. But I need to control myself. I can't be soft-hearted anymore. Once I get soft-hearted, I will get hurt again. I won't let this happen again on me. When I was working, the feeling won't even exists. When come to midnight, I was staring at my phone. I don't know why I keep staring at my phone since the phone won't even ring. Finally, I left my phone at home and went out. This is my first time left the phone at my house when I going out. You left me a deep feeling towards you. Is time to pull back myself. I really exhausted when comes to relationship. I had invested my times and effort to this relationship. At last, the results of the investment is total loss. But I did gain some special memories between me and her. In the future, I would like invest in something more stable. I really miss you.

First day of working

Working is fun. I have my own spacious room with cabinet and an assisstant. Besides that, I brought my macbook to the office. So I have 1 PC and 1 macbook. Haha!! And I sat beside my mum. I felt so stress. A dummy sitting beside her. Before the meeting dismiss, my mum asked for my opinion. At first, I really speechless. But last I did sound out and give out my own opinion. And my mum looks quite satisfied on my performance today. Haha!!! The majority of them agree with my opinion. Actually before the works start, I had done some preparation. At last my effort really paid off. I felt very happy and proud of myself. At the same time, the feeling of missing you is no longer in my mind because I have plenty of work need to do. I felt so happy with that. Now I very understand my status. Now my heart is empty and sealed. I really with happy with that. And I know that I can let it go easily.

Hurray!!!!!!!!

The day you went away

Since you told me not to put any effort anymore, I understand what it mean. Honestly, I won't text you or call you anymore. I felt so sorry to say so. I know that both of us had already used to it to text each other and chat in the middle of night. Just let time to solve our habit. Since how many effort I put, the results is still the same. I believe you can do it. So everything gonna end on 5th of January 2010. I will not continue to walk this pathway anymore. Hope you can find a better one. I wish you from the bottom of my heart all the best and good luck. This is the last time I tell you 'I love you'.

Good-bye.

Sorry, Ruby Teo

Last night, I can't really sleep after I chat with you. I keep thinking where is my mistakes. I just chat with you for around 20 minutes. After the 20 minutes, my brain keep working. It is unstoppable. I'm so sorry that I didn't pick up your call when you called me because I was changing. I didn't mean to do that. I'm so sorry. I always make you disappointed and hatred on me. Really sorry. Please forgive me. I don't really know how to express my feeling to you. I just can tell you that I really love you and can't afford to lose you.

Please forgive me, Ruby Teo..

Babeh

Congratulations to babeh.

Hehe!!

Babeh, please appreciate each other.

Good Luck to both of you.

Last night,

might our last gathering.

I felt so sorry to said so.

Glad to have you all

by my side.

You really

making me

jealous.

Haha!!!

I hope I can be like you

to have a couple life.

Haha!!

Anyway,

Good Luck

and

Good-Bye.