The born of 2010

2009 really means alot to me. Obviously I saying this year. I got to know a bunch of new friends and I had fall in love to a person. I had go through my public examination and my ABRSM exam. I I cracked many jokes in the class. All those things I already been through and learn from mistakes. This year is the year that give me a lot unforgettable memories with you. I started to go out with my schoolmates this year. Everything had already past. This year make me realize that you're really very important for me. The god had granted me tears because of you. This year do have some bad memories in between friends. But I not going to remember that. I will only remember all those good memories that granted to me. I will really appreciate that. Because friends is really important for me. At the same time, you're the most important for me. I want to share the rest of my life with you.

5 more hours to go.

After this 5 hours, we had know each other for 1 years and the half..

I love you.

I miss you, Ruby Teo

Time passes very slow without you. Today I going to medical check-up. I want to see you. Still got 6 days to go. This 6 days really passes very slow. I don't really know what to do right now. You just like a stardust. You have the magical and charismatic quality. You always the charming one in my heart. Nobody can take over your place in my heart. No subsitute for you. You're the best for me. No matter how you become, my heart still with you. I don't care how people said about me. I just want to be with you.

I miss you, Ruby Teo..

Merry Christmas

Today I went to Sunway Lagoon with my friends. Is just only few of us but I do have a lot of fun with you even though is just a few hours. But last night I really exhausted. I enjoying protecting you. I won't let anyone to hurt you. I had make you disappointed again. Because I can't give you the lovely monkey to you. I promised you that I going to buy you a very cute monkey or teddy bear for you all the way from Japan. And I will find you if I have free time. Don't worry. Yesterday before I leave you, I saw the sadness in you. But you gave me a nice memories that is the red spots at my hand. And a nice slap from you. Even though it sounds hurt. As long as you feels happy after you doing that, is worth. I rather myself feels the pain but I don't want you to be sad. I will always be there with you if you need me.

I love you, Ruby Teo.

Ending of the story...

I had decided to give up. So everything is over. I won't feels regret with my decision. Is time to let it go. I won't invest any time or effort in this anymore. This few years I will try my best not to fall in love at anyone else because it is torturing me. Just let it come naturally. Things like that can't be forced. I trying my very best to put all these things down. So that's it.

The End...

Farewell

I guess I need to say good-bye to some of my friends who go overseas to further their studies. I think I should further my studies at overseas and not coming back here. Should I? I don't really like the climate at Malaysia because it is extremely hot. I love all those country with 4 seasons. It is truly awesome and many events are offer to all the citizens. I wanna go Lancelin now with my friends to play sand boarding. But the weather is very hot. Apart from that, Malaysia had leave me many precious moments with my dearest friends and lovely classmates. Anyway, take care, my friends.

Good-bye..

Time is my chance

I really did not ready when you gave me that answer. But I'm so sorry that I still can't let it go. This is because I haven't prove it to you. I wanna prove it to you what you said is totally meaningless. And you very sure that I did not dare to do that things to you. Beside, I do not have chance to meet you. I knew that what I told you on the phone or text you, you will feels very fake. You will think that my feeling of love to you is not true and not sincere at all. You also think that I have no guts to tell you face to face. But time and my effort that I put will prove everything to you.

Tertiary Education

Yesterday, my mum brought me to some colleges to enquire some courses. The colleges that I been to are Monash University, Sunway College, and the new Taylor College. All this colleges make me very satisfy and happy about it. Besides that, I have nothing to care now except my studies. Since you had already gave me the answer, so I can pay 100% of concentration and effort in my studies. About love story, totally out from my list now in this split second. All the lecturer in those colleges advised me to further my studies at overseas. I still choosing whether I wanna be pilot or businessman. I feels so free now. At the same time, sadness occur in my heart. I hope time can recover me and let it go something that not belongs to me forever. I not gonna look back anymore. Is wasting my time. I wanna graduate in the short period of time if I can. I want to have my own career. I want to buy things myself using my own money. I don't want to depends on my parents. The feeling towards you is still exist. But I need to let it go as fast as possible.

Bored without you

This few days I'm gonna be very bored without you. Even though you bring your phone, but I not sure whether there is a network coverage or not. I hope there is a network coverage so that I can call you and text you all the time. I just don't know how to prove it to you but I trying my very best to tell you that I love you. I just wanna be with you all the time. I don't want you to leave me. I feels very bored and lonely without you. Besides that, my feeling towards will never fade away no matter what. You're just perfect for me. I do admit that sometimes my attitudes gave you the feeling of discomfort. I promised you that it won't happen again. I going to change my attitudes in the shortest period of time. Round-the-clock, I miss you. I keep thinking about you. I just don't know what I doing now is it right or wrong. Am I fall in love in the wrong person? No matter the answer is good or bad, the feeling of mine is still there.

Disappointment

I felt that what I do is making myself disappointed. I made her disappointed. I make everyone disappointed. What can I do now? This few nights I can't sleep at all. My eyes shine brightly to the ceiling and thinking something that can't happen on me. Can anyone teach me? I have no idea how to control my mind. I want to have a good night sleep. Should I consume some sleeping pills to make me sleep? Or someone knock on my head let me faint? Or just commit suicide? No need to think so many things. This world is so unfair. I can't blame anything. I just can blame myself that I still not good enough. Why can't this world be perfect? I just want you to believe. Is it so hard to fulfill? I still remembered what you told me when the first time we met each other. I felt very bored and lonely without you. I have no idea how to overcome this problem. The only way I overcome this problem is text you or call you. My heart is already broken into pieces. I just speechless and feels disappointed.

Farewell

Goodbye my friends,

especially Cornelius and Crystal.

Have a nice day. Take care.

To Where You Are by Josh Groban

Who can say for certain

Maybe you're still here

I feel you all around me

Your memory, so clear

Deep in the stillness

I can hear you speak

You're still an inspiration

Can it be

That you are mine

Forever love

And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are

Beyond the distant star

I wish upon tonight

To see you smile

If only for awhile to know you're there

A breath away not far

To where you are

Are you gently sleeping

Here inside my dream

And isn't faith believing

All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you

Just one beat away

I cherish all you gave me everyday

'Cause you are my

Forever love

Watching me from up above

And I believe

That angels breathe

And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up

To where you are

Beyond the distant star

I wish upon tonight

To see you smile

If only for awhile

To know you're there

A breath away not far

To where you are

I know you're there

A breath away not far

To where you are

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This song is so calm and meaningful. I love it so much after I able to play it on the piano. It is so romantic. This song is from a movie called P.S I Love You. The genre of this movie is romance obviously. Besides that, I got to know this song by my piano teacher. She had taught me since I was young. She guide me all the way and make a changes of me especially my characteristic and attitudes. So far I did not disappoints her in my piano. But I don't feels proud because I know that I can play much more better. I just need some time. Time can prove everything to my teacher and you. I wanna get all distinctions at all the sections. I will try to get full marks if I could. Anyway, back to the song. I like to play this song under a calm and quiet atmosphere especially during midnight. The echoes of that sounds reflects all over my room and forms a romantic environment. Music is really important for me and is a way for me to express my feeling out from my heart. I can't find other way to express my feeling except through my musical instruments. I'm so sorry that you feels so fake. It is very normal. I did not blame you because of this. This is because I used to act at school. This will make you feels that actually what I trying to say whether is true or false. Honestly, I did not try to act in front of you. I just able to clarify everything here. The more I explain, The more you will feels fake and feels like I trying to hide something from you. So I did not like to explain in front of you. This is the reason why I need blog. Because I able to write everything down according to my heart. That's all.

Cyber time

This few days I went out with Lynus and Hong Yaip to cyber cafe where nearby Leisure Mall. Three of us played Call of Duty : Modern Warfare for few hours. It is so fun. Lynus and me keep kill Hong Yaip till he get pissed off. So funny. The way he get pissed off make me laugh. Playing game is one of the way to calm me down and stop me thinking about other things. This is because I just focus on game. The graphic of the game is truly fascinating. Besides that, Steven joined us after that. He keep shouting Hong Yaip's name because Steven was killed by Hong Yaip. All the profanity had came out from Steven's mouth. I felt so funny when he scolded Hong Yaip. Some people in the cyber cafe looking at him. I feels so happy with them even though is just few of us playing game. Time passes really very fast. I hope everyday I can go out with them play games. Next week the game is on again. Haha!!!!