Without you

My tears are flowing for you,

As my mind wonders and heart beats,

My body is nothing without you.

And as the wetness of my cheek are beginning to dry, 

And my thoughts weaken and try to forget,

I feels like nothing without you.

The beats within my chest were real,

Something that no one will ever steal,

When there is nothing without you.

But as I try to forget you more and more,

My body grows weaker and begins to wear,

Mind floats, rises to react.

I know I'm nothing without you.

A relaxing day

The Swimming Pool The Sutera Harbour Yacht Club The luxury yacht The breath-taking view from my room The Living room Rafflesia Flower The flower outside the house The Lobby Beach-side

All those pictures I took with my handphone. This handphone really sucks. I forgot to bring my camera. Because I don't really like to take pictures when I go somewhere. But this time got different. Maybe my friend influenced me. This few days I went to Sabah to relax myself. Actually I should go somewhere where is really far from Malaysia. But unfortunately my parents change their decision. Besides that, my uncle persuade us to go there to have fun with them. But I really enjoy the moment with them. I went to many places with them. I felt like no stress when I with them. We went to clubhouse to drink wine, dance, sing, shout as loud as we want. The clubhouse not open for everyone. That clubhouse only open for certain V.I.P. Luckily my uncle is the V.I.P. So we can go in to experiences the Sabah's clubhouse. It is so relax and fun. I get to know many friends here. Most of them are from royal family. But they very friendly and sociable. So I can easily get to know them. Some of them from Dubai and some of them from european country. I gonna have chance to meet them again during the Chinese New Year. I don't really want to talk that much. So I end here. 

Another Disappointment

Today I got back my mathematics results and my economy objective marks. It is really very very disappointed and meaningless. What happen to my mathematics? I'm chinese. I must get A for mathematics. Chinese should good in calculation. But I get 60++ for my maths. It is so shame. I want A for my Maths please. I done a lot of practice for my maths. Why can't I get a better results? Everyone said practice makes perfect. Is totally bullshits. I don't believe anything now. I believe to myself only. I done so many practice the results is still the same. I rather give up. I don't want to forced myself. Sometimes I really don't know what happens to me. Sometimes feels very confident sometimes feels very nervous and scared. I really felt like somethings goes wrong with me.

1st day of exam

Today is my first day of exam. I have no idea why the mathematics is so complicated. I hope I can score A for maths. But English. Maybe it could make my lovely sister very disappointed. This is because Mr.Alphonsus will not set easy questions for us and he marks very strict especially grammar. This drives me crazy. I don't want to fail my English for this SPM Trial. I felt tired to see red light shining on my paper especially English and History. And the red color make me so depress sometimes when I think about it. I should score better than that because I had such a wonderful teacher that always told us "Life is Beautiful". All the teacher around me is totally awesome except one of the teacher is really useless for me. I learn nothing in that class. Luckily my brother guide me all the way. If not, I really have no idea how to done well in that subject. I had promised my brother that I will achieve good results this time. I don't want to break my promise. I never break my promise before in my life. So this time the promise that promise that I make is quite hard to fulfill but I will try my best. 

Good Luck to all Form 5 especially my lovely sister!!!!

The Warfare

Currently, I preparing for the war on coming Tuesday. This war is very meaningful because I need to apply 11 years knowledge that I learnt. This gonna be a very difficult war to fight for. And this war going to last for a month. Most of my friends is preparing for this war too. This is because they care about it very much. Apart from that, this results can lead us to the college that we want to enter. I hope that the results that I get can satisfied my brother and my parents. I don't want to disappointed them again. This is my last chance to proof to them that I can do it although I in commerce class. And commerce student do have a very bright future that waiting them. And commerce students and science student are equal. Commerce students can also be very successful. Besides that, even though during the form 3 their public examination is not good but this doesn't mean they have no future. That is already a history. Don't ever look down at commerce students. 

p/s : Yesterday is a history, Today is a gift and Tomorrow is a mystery........

SPM Trial Examintion

This few days I was playing with my mac and Playstation 3. I not really prepare for my trial yet. I wonder when I gonna start the revision seriously. Most probably this Friday I going to take this seriously. I need to start the revision. Although I do spend a few hours everyday but the Trial is around the corner. I prefer study with my friends so we can exchange our opinion. I looking forward this friday to have group study with my classmate. I hope every single of my friends can score every subject that they take. But I'm sure many of friends had started their revision during the holiday. They are hardworking. But I still fooling around and playing game. I following my brother when he was 17 years old. But his results make me randomly speechless. And I know I not that brilliant like both of my brothers. So I must used hard work to achieve good results. Besides that, my Trial is on next Tuesday. 5 more days to go. Really nervous....