Sadness and Sorrow.

I felt very regret. Just because of one decision can make everything change. Is a big changes. Why should I do that to myself? It is really suffering and the feeling of suffering is terrible. Am I really a devil? A person with cold heart, emotionless, hatred by people and make people feels uncomfortable when around with me. Is that true? I slowly found all the things that I mentioned above is true.

Angel or Devil

Am I an Angel or Devil? I think that I'm a devil more than an Angel. This is because I hurt you more than I love you. If I given a chance to revert the time, I will love you more and appreciate more. I don't want to be an Angel or Devil. I just want to be neutral. So that I'm normal. If I choose one of the categories means either I enjoy in heaven or suffer in hell. I want to do everything that related to us and meaningful. Not meaningless anymore. Argument is part of the meaningless thing that I causes it. I don't want this anymore. I want something that peace and secure that goes around us. My friends is part of my flesh and bones. They guide me and I seeks advice from them. But you is my heart. Without you, the heartbeat will stop. You and my friends are really important in my life.

Speechless

I have no idea why I so miss you. I can even dream about you when I was sleeping. You're angel to me but I'm the devil for you. Anyway, time to go. Goodbye.

Environment between high school and college

During our high school, we wished to enter college as soon as possible. But now I wished to go back high school. The moments in high school is unforgettable. My friends and my teachers are part of my family in the school. I not missing the school. I missing the moments that happened in school with my friends and teachers. Last Friday, I went back to Cempaka. I recalled the memories while sitting beside the swimming pool. Everything is just beautiful. But college will not happen such things. I hope I can revert the time and go back to high school. Jokes with my teachers, become an irresponsible monitor, the gamers in the class, disturbing teachers and my friends and many more. Apart from that, all my dearest friends in always by my side. They just like my siblings. But in college, I can't find such friends anymore. Form 5 Commerce 1 and Form 5 Commerce 2 are always a family. Nothing can separate us. The one and only one in my heart. Is just them. I love them so much..... and my dearest Ruby Teo as well.

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this few day i will b in home jail. too boring. i want to hang out with my friends or my dear, but cannot. cus my parents ngam edy. said me go out everyday. ==... sometime i really just go for meeting but they thought that i will hang out with my friends or my dear. cus they knew him same college with me. so they thought that if i go to college, i will meet him.. unfortunately, they are wrong. cus our time are different. like example, he finished at 4pm, but my meeting start at 4pm. how to meet each other??? even he have break time for 1 hr or 2 hr, but he together with his friends. if i join them, i feel like very weird. cus i dunno them. even i knew them, i just keep quiet. cus we not very close to each other. so i don't want to kacau them. sometime i really try to join them but really don't have topic to chat. haiz.. gonna miss him so much. recently he got many assignment to do. because of the assignment made our dating and chatting decrease yet can't blames it. assignment also got advantage such as will make him improve language, get more knowledge, get more experience, know more information, and more. so, i can't blame it. when the lecture give him a assignment to do, its his responsibility to do it and finish it. beside that, group assignment also the same.

anyway, its time to sleep now. Gud Nite.

by ruby

p.s. please forgive my grammar!!!