Angel or Devil

Am I an Angel or Devil? I think that I'm a devil more than an Angel. This is because I hurt you more than I love you. If I given a chance to revert the time, I will love you more and appreciate more. I don't want to be an Angel or Devil. I just want to be neutral. So that I'm normal. If I choose one of the categories means either I enjoy in heaven or suffer in hell. I want to do everything that related to us and meaningful. Not meaningless anymore. Argument is part of the meaningless thing that I causes it. I don't want this anymore. I want something that peace and secure that goes around us. My friends is part of my flesh and bones. They guide me and I seeks advice from them. But you is my heart. Without you, the heartbeat will stop. You and my friends are really important in my life.