Bored without you

This few days I'm gonna be very bored without you. Even though you bring your phone, but I not sure whether there is a network coverage or not. I hope there is a network coverage so that I can call you and text you all the time. I just don't know how to prove it to you but I trying my very best to tell you that I love you. I just wanna be with you all the time. I don't want you to leave me. I feels very bored and lonely without you. Besides that, my feeling towards will never fade away no matter what. You're just perfect for me. I do admit that sometimes my attitudes gave you the feeling of discomfort. I promised you that it won't happen again. I going to change my attitudes in the shortest period of time. Round-the-clock, I miss you. I keep thinking about you. I just don't know what I doing now is it right or wrong. Am I fall in love in the wrong person? No matter the answer is good or bad, the feeling of mine is still there.

Disappointment

I felt that what I do is making myself disappointed. I made her disappointed. I make everyone disappointed. What can I do now? This few nights I can't sleep at all. My eyes shine brightly to the ceiling and thinking something that can't happen on me. Can anyone teach me? I have no idea how to control my mind. I want to have a good night sleep. Should I consume some sleeping pills to make me sleep? Or someone knock on my head let me faint? Or just commit suicide? No need to think so many things. This world is so unfair. I can't blame anything. I just can blame myself that I still not good enough. Why can't this world be perfect? I just want you to believe. Is it so hard to fulfill? I still remembered what you told me when the first time we met each other. I felt very bored and lonely without you. I have no idea how to overcome this problem. The only way I overcome this problem is text you or call you. My heart is already broken into pieces. I just speechless and feels disappointed.

Farewell

Goodbye my friends,

especially Cornelius and Crystal.

Have a nice day. Take care.

To Where You Are by Josh Groban

Who can say for certain

Maybe you're still here

I feel you all around me

Your memory, so clear

Deep in the stillness

I can hear you speak

You're still an inspiration

Can it be

That you are mine

Forever love

And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are

Beyond the distant star

I wish upon tonight

To see you smile

If only for awhile to know you're there

A breath away not far

To where you are

Are you gently sleeping

Here inside my dream

And isn't faith believing

All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you

Just one beat away

I cherish all you gave me everyday

'Cause you are my

Forever love

Watching me from up above

And I believe

That angels breathe

And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up

To where you are

Beyond the distant star

I wish upon tonight

To see you smile

If only for awhile

To know you're there

A breath away not far

To where you are

I know you're there

A breath away not far

To where you are

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This song is so calm and meaningful. I love it so much after I able to play it on the piano. It is so romantic. This song is from a movie called P.S I Love You. The genre of this movie is romance obviously. Besides that, I got to know this song by my piano teacher. She had taught me since I was young. She guide me all the way and make a changes of me especially my characteristic and attitudes. So far I did not disappoints her in my piano. But I don't feels proud because I know that I can play much more better. I just need some time. Time can prove everything to my teacher and you. I wanna get all distinctions at all the sections. I will try to get full marks if I could. Anyway, back to the song. I like to play this song under a calm and quiet atmosphere especially during midnight. The echoes of that sounds reflects all over my room and forms a romantic environment. Music is really important for me and is a way for me to express my feeling out from my heart. I can't find other way to express my feeling except through my musical instruments. I'm so sorry that you feels so fake. It is very normal. I did not blame you because of this. This is because I used to act at school. This will make you feels that actually what I trying to say whether is true or false. Honestly, I did not try to act in front of you. I just able to clarify everything here. The more I explain, The more you will feels fake and feels like I trying to hide something from you. So I did not like to explain in front of you. This is the reason why I need blog. Because I able to write everything down according to my heart. That's all.

Cyber time

This few days I went out with Lynus and Hong Yaip to cyber cafe where nearby Leisure Mall. Three of us played Call of Duty : Modern Warfare for few hours. It is so fun. Lynus and me keep kill Hong Yaip till he get pissed off. So funny. The way he get pissed off make me laugh. Playing game is one of the way to calm me down and stop me thinking about other things. This is because I just focus on game. The graphic of the game is truly fascinating. Besides that, Steven joined us after that. He keep shouting Hong Yaip's name because Steven was killed by Hong Yaip. All the profanity had came out from Steven's mouth. I felt so funny when he scolded Hong Yaip. Some people in the cyber cafe looking at him. I feels so happy with them even though is just few of us playing game. Time passes really very fast. I hope everyday I can go out with them play games. Next week the game is on again. Haha!!!!