Giving up is the hardest profession in the world

The sky is crying. The atmosphere outside is just similar in my heart. The tears is raining. But I can't do anything on it. I just can wait. If really have chance for us to develop a relationships, I will really appreciate it very much. This love games is too risky for me. I don't dare to invest so much time and effort in the relationships. I wanna have a stable investment in relationships. This can give me a good return if it is stable. The more I invest, the greater the risk I would get hurt. I don't like challenging things. I love things to be stable all the time and have no risk. As a return, It can give me the feeling safe and secure. The person that you always think can be my soulmate is not her. The person I wanted the most to be my soulmate is only you. She is just part of my siblings. I have 0% feeling towards her. I know you will feels that I was lie-ing and feeling of fake occur in your mind. Unfortunately, blogging is the best way to express my feeling here. In here, I have no intention to act. This is because this is my second home. It is not necessary for me to act here. I just giving up to continue loving you. But the feeling will remains the same in my heart. You're the girl that I adore the most in my 17 years of life. You know who you are. I will still love you.