Finally

This SPM examination wakes me up in many aspect especially my life. I able to feels that I no longer the previous Sebastian anymore. And I felt that I had changed . I learnt quite a lot of things this year. I no longer need to wear a mask to face everyone. My true self shall reveals. I need to look forward and will not make any stupid decision without thinking. And I understand that you no longer belongs to me. Our distance had gone very far from each other. But my feeling towards you will never fade away. During this SPM period, I felt myself have no stress at all. I felt very relax. Happy go lucky. I always thinks fail then fail. Not a big deal. I don't really give a damn to that nonsense certificates. This certificates will only can used in this "Tanah Melayu". Apart from that, "Tanah Melayu" is really freaking hot. Today, I became very rebellious to the guard and the receptionist. I need us to get approval from the receptionist to go back home. The school need my parents purposely to travel here to sign the nonsense procedure. This is so impossible. Finally, my friend's parents came to help us. Thanks to him and his parents. My parents had make a very wrong decision to send me to this school that have such a stupid procedure. But I had learnt a lot of things in this school at the same time. I appreciate all my friends around me. But not the stupid, nonsense procedure of the schools. Their procedure and attitudes start to piss me off.  

 

*Relaxing*

The Corundum family

Yesterday, I polished my Sapphire. I felt like long time didn't touch it. I need to get back the soul of my Sapphire. By getting back the soul, I need to put some feeling in to feel the music flowing down deep in my heart. I want this feeling back to me. This feeling is so unforgettable. Same goes to my lovely Pegasus. Pegasus is a combination of all the instruments. Sapphire is a string instrument. Besides that, I had put many effort in these musical instruments. There are just part of my family. Without them, my life gonna be very bored and lonely. Apart from that, I do have lively corundum who leave among us. She is a very lovely, ladylike, polite, good-looking, magnificent girl with full of divinity in her heart. That's the best way to describe her. All my friends have these characteristic that I mentioned above. This is why my friends are always beautiful and lovely one. 

Am I right, my dear friends?

Giving up is the hardest profession in the world

The sky is crying. The atmosphere outside is just similar in my heart. The tears is raining. But I can't do anything on it. I just can wait. If really have chance for us to develop a relationships, I will really appreciate it very much. This love games is too risky for me. I don't dare to invest so much time and effort in the relationships. I wanna have a stable investment in relationships. This can give me a good return if it is stable. The more I invest, the greater the risk I would get hurt. I don't like challenging things. I love things to be stable all the time and have no risk. As a return, It can give me the feeling safe and secure. The person that you always think can be my soulmate is not her. The person I wanted the most to be my soulmate is only you. She is just part of my siblings. I have 0% feeling towards her. I know you will feels that I was lie-ing and feeling of fake occur in your mind. Unfortunately, blogging is the best way to express my feeling here. In here, I have no intention to act. This is because this is my second home. It is not necessary for me to act here. I just giving up to continue loving you. But the feeling will remains the same in my heart. You're the girl that I adore the most in my 17 years of life. You know who you are. I will still love you.

Time

Today is 11th of November 2009. Time passes really fast. Now time is very important for me. Besides that, I miss the Form 4 Commerce 1. When I looked at the class photo of 2008, that year is a year that my brain have nothing just studies. But the class of 2009 have a very big difference compare to class of 2008. I had already study at Cempaka School for two years. I should feels grateful or regret to enter this school. I really don't know which one should I choose. But I should feels thankful to my parents, siblings and my friends. They stayed here because of me. But next year they gonna go back to where they belongs to. When I first enter Cempaka, I really hate the school and the person around me. They are so weird and aggressive sometimes. But the times changes my thinking. Finally, I felt that my friends in the school really important for me. When I saw the name list of Form 5 Commerce 1, I felt sad. This is because all the friends that make me laughed went to Form 5 Commerce 2. Why can't they maintain in Form 5 Commerce 1? Because of their academic performance is weaker than others. So they need to go down. At the same time, I felt happy because get to know new friends. Anyway, everything gonna end at 9th of December 2009. After 9th of December 2009, everyone will enter different colleges and some might wanna enter the World of Unknown. The World of Unknown is full of challengers.  Everybody fight for their survival. Fighting for survival need to sacrifice something no matter what. Maybe it might their relationships, friends, family or life. Nowadays, people are cold-blooded. They can do anything to achieve what they wishes for. For instance, they will kill people because of money or maybe will rape and murder to satisfy themselves. So prepare ourselves to face the new world called The World of Unknown. 

Good Luck..

Vacation

Last night, my parents planning to bring us to go Japan during the Chinese New Year. So fun. I can buy anything I want and eat anything I like. Beside, this year is my last year in the high school. The 10 subjects that I study now can put down completely and enjoy my holiday for next few months. I can travel around with my brother and friends. Play around. Get to know more culture in other country. Drink many types of coffee around the world. And the best part is get to know more Casino around the world. Haha!! After vacation to Japan, I going to request to have a cruise vacation to have maximum excitement. Play until I wanna vomit then come back for my studies. Meaning to say that next year is the real honeymoon year. The longest honeymoon year ever in my 17 years of life. Haha!! My brain keep thinking about vacation now. Can't concentrate on studies. How to face the SPM examination? The best way is keep it aside. Haha!! I think I will consider to do that. That's all for today. 

Good Luck in your life.  

Best Friend Forever :)

Finally, I have the answer from you. And glad to hear that. Actually before that I trying to let it go and don't waste time. The truth is I can really put it down completely. Thank you. But you still my friend no matter what. I had think twice in everything I did. That's all. 

Best Friend Forever.