Ruby Teo

When I first saw you, I was scared to talk to you.

When I spoke to you, I was scared to hold you.

When I held you, I was scared to love you.

Now that I love you, I am scared to lose you.

I love you, Ruby Teo...

Miss you so much.

I will never leave you anymore. That's is the first and the last time the day I left you. It will never happen anymore. I want you to stay beside me forever. Everything we did will bring to our future. The things that happened around us will be our memories. This few days I very miss you but too bad we can't meet each other. I miss you so much. Once I see you, I don't feel like letting you go back. This is because I not willing to let you leave me.

I love you, Ruby Teo.

The day you went away

You're the person that can colors my life. Without you, the colors of life is black and white. The day you went away is the day where my life comes to black and white and where everything started to be meaningless. I need you to color my life. I don't want to live in a life that is colorless. I doing my best to make you happy. My feeling will never be comfortable till I get you. Everyday I live in a day of sadness and sorrow. I wanted to hold your hand and touch our future together. I wanted to hold it tightly without letting go anymore. This is where everything started to be colorful and meaningful.

Sadness and Sorrow.

I felt very regret. Just because of one decision can make everything change. Is a big changes. Why should I do that to myself? It is really suffering and the feeling of suffering is terrible. Am I really a devil? A person with cold heart, emotionless, hatred by people and make people feels uncomfortable when around with me. Is that true? I slowly found all the things that I mentioned above is true.