I miss you, I need you, I love you

We promised each other that we will love each other till the end of the world. You asked me 'will I leave you because you have these infection?' I replied you, I will never leave you no matter how you become and how sick you are. I will take good care of you whenever you're sick. I spent most of my time for you is because I wanted you to feel that I always be there for you. However, I have a terrible and horrifying attitude. I hurts you all the time and making you disappointed all the time. Actually I did not break my promises I kept it and I remembered it. I just haven't done it yet. This 2 years and 8 months relationship I been through with you is not using money to retain it. I used my pure heart, time and effort in this relationship. I not willing to let you go at all. Many things I done behind you, you doesn't feel it at all. I used one month of preparation to prepare a beautiful Valentine's day for you. I went to florist to learn how to fold artificial flower and arranged the real flower. Even though I have skin allergic and nose sensitive, I still insist to do it for you. This is because I want you to know that I willing to sacrifice anything for you just to make you happy. I also have a timeline of 60 years for our future. All these plans I specially designed for you and follow what you wanted to do. 

We promised each other that you're my baby wifey and I'm your baby hubby. We promised that we will not break up no matter what circumstances. I asked you for few times. You keep saying that you confirm that you will only love me and marry me in the future. I also promised you that I will only love you. I will not expose to any other girls.If got girl want to get near me, I will report to you immediately. I don't mind that you do not know how to cook, don't go market, and many other more. But it's okay for me. All these things I can learn by now. I learn on behalf of you. I learn to go market buy vegetables, chicken, fruits once a week. I also promised you that I will not study abroad because of you. I don't want you to be suffer at here alone. Missing me but cannot meet me is really torturing you. All the things I do is just don't want to make you suffer. I want to make you happy all the time. 

After a week, I really felt that I really can't live without you. Human makes mistakes. This few days you broke my heart into pieces. I not trying to use money to buy back the relationship. I bought the necklace for you is because I promised you. I wanted to prove to you that I did not forget the promises that I promise you. You are the queen in my heart. The design of the necklace is heart shape with the crown on it. The crown symbolise you're the my queen forever. The heart shape is I will only love you for my entire life. When the heart shape and crown combined together, it means I wanted you to be my queen forever. Because of you, I willing to go to temple to take up the bible to read it. Unfortunately, my mandarin is way too bad. I can't understand at all. I put lots of effort and time on you is because I know is worth it. I buy you necklace, teddy bears and spend time and effort on you is because I know that in future you can give me a family, caring, and love that money cannot buy it. Till now, I still so miss you, I need you and I still very very very love you. 

I hate 2012

It has been an ages that I didn't update my blog. Since now I'm free, I wish to continue my blog. Life has make a lot of changes in these 2 years. But one thing has not change at all. That's my feeling towards my girlfriend, the love she gave me for all these years and many things that she made sacrifices because of me. I love her more than anything. My aunt just screwed up the 2012 Chinese New Year. She left us a bad memory because she had just pass away the day before the Chinese New Year. Things happen too sudden, none of us can accept that she had gone. My girlfriend worry about my condition, my friends around me felt sad for me, they shared my life no matter is happy or sad. Since life was created that we need to move forward, I has no choice but to move forward. Unfortunately, I can't control my mind which keep flashing back the memory my aunt left for me since I was young. At last, my lovely girlfriend gave me her hand to pull me up and cheer me all the time no matter where she is. In my entire life, I just love her only.

Love you, Ruby Teo.

My fault

I'm sorry that I not understand you. I did angry at you last night. This is the reason why I did not want to text you. I keep thinking whether which parties having the problem. Finally, I found out the answer. That's me myself. I did not put effort to understand you and tolerate you. I hope currently is still early for me to put more effort to understand you and your feeling as well. Apart from that, I did realized you kept change me to be more friendly and sociable with your friends. I will try my best to change the bad habit that in plant under the bottom of my heart. You're the thing that I wanted the most. I don't want to lose it. I wanted you not because of the sake of lonely. I wanted you because I really need you and I love you. The true feeling will never fade away and going to be immortalize by the time we spent together and the pictures that we took before.

Love you and always.

Apology

I wanted to apologize that I have insufficient time to accompany you during the exam week. I miss you so much even though I busy doing my revision or having my exam. Beside, I know that you will always by my side and support me whenever you are. I going to repay everything that what I had owned you from the past. I'm sorry that I did not accompany you when you needed me. I will allocate time for both of us to go out. I will not abandon you for sake of anything because I love you and not afford to lose you for the second time. Your love for me is limitless. All I wanted to say is just I love you.

Ruby Teo

When I first saw you, I was scared to talk to you.

When I spoke to you, I was scared to hold you.

When I held you, I was scared to love you.

Now that I love you, I am scared to lose you.

I love you, Ruby Teo...